Jihyo, a member of the group, expressed her honest feelings about her difficult 11 years as a trainee and malicious comments.
On the 1st, on the YouTube channel 'Ilsa F', "11 years of training! No matter how much the world floats down, Jihyo's thinking makes me CHEER UP again..." the video was posted.
On this day, Jihyo "Next year is the 10th anniversary. He also spent 11 years as a trainee. Therefore, 'Wouldn't it be good to look back on this brilliant moment of mine?' he said, choosing 'Feel Special' as the theme of the exhibition.
Jihyo "I wanted to talk about self-esteem today. I always think a lot about my self-esteem because my job always needs to be evaluated"I think self-esteem is how much I love myself"
He said "My self-esteem was very low when I was a trainee or for eight or nine years at the beginning of my debut. You can't help but be evaluated all the time professionally, and fix it. I can't help but hear 'what are you doing?', so my self-esteem goes down, and that's how I see myself. "Looking for something wrong with me, looking in the mirror. "It's not very pretty here', While monitoring, I was like, "Why are you dancing like this?"I thought a lot about it"He confessed. Jihyo said, "I was always evaluating myself like others," he added.
Jihyo says, "One day 'Why am I hating myself?It occurred to me that 'I should know how to love myself, feeling a lot that "I'm a job that needs to be loved, but I'm not loving myself" I thought a lot, 'That way I can be loved.'" He then lied down before going to bed and spat out 'Jihyo, I love you' with his voice. I think I fell in love with myself because I did it every day like a habit."
Jihyo also talked about her own methods of protecting from the eyes of others, such as malicious comments.
Jihyo said "When my self-esteem was low, I was hurt a lot and I didn't have to look at it. "Not everyone can like me, can they?"
He said, "'I've become a bad person again today, looking at the bad comments, and then I was so focused on nurturing myself at the point where I thought about my self-esteem.'" It was so precious for me to have a good hobby, meet my favorite friends, have a good meal, and have a good conversation. As a result, every day was so busy."
Jihyo "I didn't have enough time to spend for me. As I lived like that, the eyes of others became increasingly meaningless to me." He said "Even though the evaluation was completely focused on me, I didn't have time to pay attention to other people's opinions"I see, but I'm too busy. I started to have the mindset that I had to live for myself..." he said, drawing attention.
