Yul-hee shed tears when she revealed why she gave up custody.
On TV Chosun 'Now I'm Alone', which aired on the 22nd, Yul-hee, a former idol, revealed how she decided to appear after much consideration.
Yul-hee married Choi Min-hwan of FT Island at the age of 21 and was called the youngest idol couple. At that time, Choi Min-hwan appeared, and Yul-hee laughed, saying, `I can't believe I can see you while smiling.'
Afterwards, Yulhee gave birth to her first son at the age of 22, gave birth to twin daughters at the age of 24, and became a mother of three children at the age of 24. Yul-hee, who was married in a sweet way even though she was worried about her because she was young. However, after five years of marriage, they ended up choosing their own path.
Yul-hee said "It's the first time I've ever talked about the second act of my life. I was worried a lot, and I was scared. I was worried that there might be a misunderstanding"I think I need my story," he said, explaining the reason for his appearance. Then Jeon said "You have to confess quickly so that you can get sick if you put it in your 20s." I think the timing is very good."
Yul-hee added that she thought "It's okay to live like this" but it turned out that she was eating away at herself, so I decided to do it."
Yul-hee, who debuted as the youngest member of 'La Boom' at age 18 after two years of practice, debuted without any social experience. It was psychologically difficult except for performing on stage. At that time, I met my ex-husband and relied on each other a lot and received a lot of comfort" he said.
Sharing the hardships of idols, the two became close, and Yul-hee became pregnant and even married at the age of 21. Yul-hee, who announced her marriage after leaving the team, said "I had a baby three or four months after the relationship. We talked a lot about marriage during our relationship. A 23-year-old young bride was my dream. I wanted to have a happy family." And Yul-hee, who became a 24-year-old mother of three, was just so happy. When I'm watching the kids..."
After four years of happy marriage, Yul-hee did not feel the crisis. So all of a sudden, wept. He "So I have the most happy memories. Because I never felt that a crisis had come." From the moment I found out, I was alone in hell" he said.
Yul-hee said "When the word divorce first approached, let's overcome it. Because we love each other. I thought, 'cause there's kids"When I felt that I had not won ", both of them were already deep in the goal. I decided to divorce for each other."
The custody of the three children was to be held by the father. Criticism poured out against Yul-hee afterwards. Yul-hee said "I made an agreement" Which parent wouldn't want to see my bloodballs. The decision was the hardest. I couldn't even say that it was hard"Wept.
He said "I lived in a large family, and I was watching my children live happily, and it's a very good environment in reality."Three children and I got home, and we spent kindergarten working like heads on the ground." At the same time, Yul-hee said that she gave up custody because she wanted to protect economic conditions, saying, `I already gave up my anxiety about divorce, but I changed everything here.'
Meanwhile, Yul-hee's first living room was revealed. He "I didn't expect to live alone so soon. After the divorce, I tried to stay with my parents, but when the children came and went, it was difficult, so I set up a house close to my children."
Yul-hee, who is currently working as a livelihood influencer, is also working on tools through SNS. Tooling is the only job. "I'm paying for it by paying rent, paying utility bills, eating, and living expenses while I'm working on tools."
On this day, Yul-hee took a snap. At that time, Yul-hee mentioned the child during makeup, and first informed her sister and stylist manager of her pregnancy. The head of the department worried a lot. When I said, "I want to have a baby," he was considerate, saying, "I'll make the clothes not tight."
Yulhee, who has been on stage since she was pregnant, said, "'My back hurt a lot.'" It could be the last stage'I danced hard while controlling my thoughts.' Then "My mother cried a lot when I told her that I was pregnant. `I was confident that I could raise him well,' he said."At the end, I told my parents on both sides and told the company when I decided to organize my idol activities.' First, second, and third twins who are 18 months apart. Even though it was hard to raise children, it was a happy mother, Yul-hee.
Yulhee met and spent time with her friend. Even at this time, Yul-hee was full of children's thoughts. Yulhee must have known the children's habits and favorite foods. But as the children grow older, it feels weird when they don't wear the clothes I bought and have clothes that I've never seen before or see new images of children that I don't know." Then "I'm not saying I can't accept it, but I think I realize it when I do. I'm not next to the children every day."
Yulhee said "Let's make a divorce decision and wash away all hate." So, when there are children's problems or issues, I contact them comfortably. "I think my ex-husband also washed away his hatred for each other after deciding to divorce, so he thinks only of them as parents."
Also, Yul-hee, who came to have postpartum depression, said "At the time, I didn't think 'postpartum depression came', but when I think about my first time after having twins 'I had a really hard time then. I thought I was raising my child with postpartum depression"If I were a mom who was a little more proficient in Jae-yul, in fact, all the first-timers would have been the same, but at that time, the thought of 'I guess I'm not good enough because I'm a young mother' made me a little harder."
Yul-hee said "I'm more sorry now. They divorced because of the adults' choice, and the children are not at fault, isn't it?" he said, expressing his regret.
In addition, Yulhee has never felt that a crisis has come. But the moment I found out, I was alone in hell"When I consider the whole marriage, I was very happy. The hard thing is that if it came in a short time, it seems that happiness always existed."
Then "I think I've been festering, too. 'We don't have a problem. Still happy, good parents, we are a happy family and we have overcome everything. I thought, 'There's a crisis like this once in a while.'" We can overcome this wound, because we love it. Because there are children."
After a year of contemplation, I decided to divorce myself, and I looked at reality rationally as Rain. Yulhee says "'The only choice for me is divorce. The rest thought let's make choices for the kids"At first, I thought "Of course children should grow up next to me"
"But don't you have the absence of your mom or dad at some point?" he said. "Like I head to the ground, I get the kids and the house, I go back to work, and I go to kindergarten. "We have to go through situational and realistic changes, and in that case, I thought the less risky side was on my dad's side."
One day when she was the last one to exist as a mother, Yulhee agonized until then. 'I don't think I can live without babies. Is this right? Even if babies can't accept change, will they be greedy?'"Wept.
He said "First, to Jae-yul 'I don't think I can be with Jae-yul every day because my mother will live in my grandmother's house in the future. But I still love and cherish Jae-yul so much that I said, 'Don't think you don't have a mother.'" He said, "'Mom doesn't leave you.'"
Yul-hee said "The first one is very mature from a young age. He put up with it on the day we broke up and cried not to leave. "The younger twin says "I want to live with my mother" I think I know that I live separately now."
